Giving Back to God.
I have a lot to say.
I was sitting here on this fine morning, just thinking about how blessed and favored I am. I look back on my life and I constantly see God’s hand steering me, paving the way for me, and protecting me. I am very grateful.
I walk around with this privileged air of security. I don’t fear.
I believe that my life is truly a reflection of Psalm 23 and Psalm 91. Sure, I’ve had my trials in life, as everyone does. However, I have never had anything to completely overwhelm me. I have never been hospitalized. I have never not had my needs met. I have my health. I was just thinking that I am so thankful for all of the things that He has done for me…then another thought came to me. If I am so thankful, how can I show it?
Writing for this blog is something that I have been holding back on for a while. I have filled many journals with my writings and the Lord told me years ago that it would be something that I would go public with eventually. If you read my first post, I created that back in September of last year. It’s been a long time. He has already given me everything that I need to go ahead and do what I am supposed to do, I just have to sit here and take the time to do it.
Why am I doing it now?
Well, I mentioned before that God’s hand has steered me throughout my entire life. When I say “steering,” I don’t mean that He has literally told me in which direction I should go. He’s not “taking the wheel,” as they say. A lot of the time, this steering was a road block or a rejection. Well, for the past two years, after graduating from university, I’ve been on this journey of going deeper into the things of God. I’ve never read the bible in it’s entirety, so I started with that. I figured, if I believe in the bible, I need to know what’s actually in it. As I started doing that, journaling more consistently, and really taking it seriously, God began to reveal Himself to me even more.
During this period; however, I haven’t been able to find a job in my field. I know that I’m qualified, I know that I have the skill, but I have just been stuck! I even tried to just get an entry level position in a customer service role, just to make some income, no dice. I just had a great interview, I had prepared for it, and the questions that I practiced were largely what they asked me. I still got rejected. So, I figure this is not what I’m supposed to be doing right now.
I think back on all of the rejections that I received, the pitfalls that I put myself into, and every time that I ask Him what I’m supposed to be doing, something about writing always comes up. You’re a writer. Write that book. Write that blog. Write. Write. Write. It’s always the same, every time. Well alright, let me stop pushing this off and make time for it.
The thing that I love about how God dealt with me is through His patience and His love. I’ve been extremely blessed over this past year, many prayers have been answered. I will make more posts as to the specifics of these answered prayers, but God’s constant presence in my life just leaves me in awe. Even though I was slow in doing what He asked me to do, He still blessed me anyway and it just made me want to return the favor.
That’s just how God is, He makes you want to give Him your all. ♡
LAMENTATIONS 3:25-26 NIV
“The LORD is good to those whose hope is in Him, to the one who seeks Him; it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the LORD.”
